How I Manifested a New Job
And, A Change in Dynamic
I get into phases where I listen to Joe Dispenza and do his guided meditations. I like the guy and his messages. The one thing that keeps me in phases is that he has changed his voice and cadence on his new meditations and they are super annoying now. Luckily, I still have one recording I purchased years ago, before he began re-recording all of his work. The reason I bring him up, is that I used his longer meditation from his book Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself to manifest a new day new job and it’s a cool story. Even if you are not a Dispenza fan - and he is a controversial public personality, please continue reading. The way this played out is super cool.
For one full month in November of 2020 and part of the month of December, until the holidays threw me off, I meditated most mornings for over an hour working on changing the habit of being myself. There were aspects of my life and my thinking that had just become so annoying to me that I couldn’t stand them anymore. So, for one month I did the meditations every day. Not always in the morning. Sometimes I couldn’t get to it until the evening, and that’s fine. The Universe doesn’t hold us to linear time.
The meditation is broken up into 3 Parts. Part 1 is where you sit with your usual thoughts and feelings, paying attention to how they feel in your body. Then, in part 2, you conjure up new thoughts and feelings and see how they feel in your body. You go back and forth between the two states of being so you never forget what it feels like being the “old” you. When we pay attention to how that feels in our body, we can start to recognize when we fall back into those thought patterns. Part 3 is where things get cool - you start to visualize your life as this new version of you. How would you think? How would you feel? How would you show up in the world? And you let your mind show you images of this “future” you. I say future in quotes because Dispenza doesn’t think of this as existing in the future. This version of you is available now in the quantum field.
For many years I have felt a bit burnt out in my job (Mindyfulness is not my job). And, that is in large part because of the dynamic I had been experiencing in literally every workplace of my career up to that point. That was close to 20 years by then. That is a long time to experience a draining dynamic or pattern and its a wonder I lasted as long as I did. I was ready for something new. I have a very cool idea for a new business and I know the kind of people I want to work with, so I conjured up what it would feel like to be in that sort of environment. When it came to the work portion of my meditation to be visualized, with those feelings conjured up in my body as if I was working in this dream job right now, I saw a horse shoe shaped office, with gray walls and floor to ceiling windows. If I looked out the windows I could see out to Casco Bay with the islands off in the distance. It was a panoramic view. And it felt very cool and very, very real. But, I discounted the vision because my current employer was looking for a new office space and one building he was looking at would have had this view, it was something he was sort of bragging about. So, I chalked it up to that image being planted in my brain.
That old job became so unbearable by January that I started having migraines on the regular, and I never get headaches. Whenever I get them, I have come to learn is when I am in deep stress and something in my life needs to change fast! Very rarely do my circumstances warrant this kind of swift action. I remember looking for a new job that month and finding an ad for a position that paid significantly higher than any similar position I had heard of for my industry. It was actually market rate for my level of experience, but I had been so under paid and under valued for so long that I didn’t even realize. I thought it was the norm and had certainly been convinced by employers that I was extremely well paid. The ad was also for a department that I knew I would not love. I knew I could tolerate it but it wasn’t my preference. So, I held off applying. By mid - February, I was so miserable and the headaches were so bad that by 2:30 pm I couldn’t look at the computer screen without getting nauseated.
I called in sick on a Wednesday - because I really was not emotionally well enough to work and the thought of going in made me want to cry. It took me so long to address the problem because it had been going well in the office lately. There was nothing I could point to that caused me to feel that way - no big conflicts, my boss was happy and not retaliating or bullying anyone in any way. But the universe knows when it is time to make a move and it doesn’t wait for things to be bad again - when an opportunity presents itself, it will move you. And that is what happened here. I did apply to the job and had all of the interviews via Zoom. I applied on a Wednesday and received a job offer on Monday. The universe doesn’t mess around!
My first day in the new office was the first time I had ever been inside or seen the inside of the office. This was March of 2021 and they were still on pandemic protocols. When I was given the tour of the office, my jaw dropped. It was exactly what I saw in my meditation. And, this wasn’t a one time vision in the meditation, I saw this same office set up every time I did this meditation. Dark gray walls, industrial feel, floor to ceiling windows and a whole patio/deck with gorgeous views of Casco Bay. I was floored. It is horse shoe shaped and my office is at the end of the shoe, with no water views, but I do have a window office.
Not only was the office scene exactly what I saw in the vision - the culture of the office is what I asked for as well. One thing I wanted was a culture of everyone treating each other like family and “emotionally healthy co-workers”. And it is largely the way it is here. A culture of treating people like actual team members - everyone having a seat at the table, a voice, and an important role to perform. There is compassion and no one’s nose is rubbed in the “mess on the floor” or whacked on the nose when they make mistakes. It is a compassionate culture and it has taken some time to understand how to navigate and thrive in it. But that part is a story for another day!
The job isn’t in the realm of my idea for a new business, but sometimes we need stepping stones to our dreams and in my case, I needed to up level my self worth, expectations of other people and have some concrete evidence of being treated better.
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